So, we're pregnant. I knew something was in the water lately HAHA!
We literally just found out last night. Here's the scoop...
We've been discussing the inevitable "Second Child Idea" for awhile now, but up until last month I was dead set against it. I didn't WANT to be pregnant again so soon (not that 18 months is SOON, but still..), and I was stressed and worried about money, my job(s), our house etc. Finally, on our way down to St. Louis we discussed the whole topic through and through and we decided, What the hell... let's just do it! So, I stopped taking the pill and, well a month later here we are. Writing about being pregnant.
I honestly did not think I had gotten pregnant this past month. The last 2 times I was pregnant (my first pregnancy was a miscarriage, and my second was of course, Porter), we were SO very lucky to get pregnant right away, the first month. I felt incredibly blessed and lucky. I know there are so many couples out there trying to get pregnant and not able to. I tried so hard during my pregnancy with Porter to not act or feel ungrateful. I figured this time around, what are our odds of getting so lucky on the first try AGAIN? For a third time?
Well, God has blessed us is all I can think to say. The last few days I had been feeling a little "off"... kind of crampy but not "those" kind of cramps. I remembered feeling like that with Porter, and Leslie said she had felt that way before finding out she was pregnant with Reyna. So I had already taken two tests (both about a week too early... a week before my period was due... so not enough HCG in my pee anyway) and they were negative so I just told myself "Nope, didn't happen this month. We'll keep trying next month." Well, after I kept feeling a little crampy/pinchy I decided last night, around 9:30pm, to take a test. At first no line, but then after 2 minutes, a faint blue line. This morning P and I went to Target and I picked up a digital test so I didn't have to interpret the line and I could clearly read "Pregnant" or "Not Pregnant".
It said... "PREGNANT!"
So, that is the story. We're on our way to being a family of 4. I'm extremely excited, but extremely nervous and cautious at the same time. I don't want to get too attached and lose the baby early like we did the first time. I know in the next few months it is a very unstable time, and I'm hoping and praying that this baby sticks with us.